The ladies are stepping up to the plate this week. Every one I received is from a female (at least that's how I read it).
Without further ado, I bring your Friday Secrets:
1. When I was 18 I had a secret affair with a man in his 40s. I started it. He was successful and handsome and I was bored with boys my age. We secretly carried this affair on for 9 months. We saw each other nearly every day and no one ever found out except a couple of my close friends and one of his. I loved that he was in awe of me and he loved feeling young and desirable again. I also learned a lot, if you know what I mean. Towards the end I began to get bored and broke it off without explanation. His heart was broken a little. We see each other in passing here and there and I pretend we don't know each other. My husband would die if he knew. I'm not sure he'd think the same of me ever again.
2. For the first time in my married life, I am seriously considering cheating on my spouse with a friend. I don't know if the opportunity will ever present itself, but if it does I won't say no. I am so bored and feel so unloved that I don't think I will feel guilty about it at all.
3. At my wedding, I had the biggest sense of dread in my chest. Walking down the aisle, I felt like I was marching towards my death. Although I knew we had to do it, I knew I was sealing my fate in that I would never truly be happy. And so far, I have been correct. Happiness in my relationship is always just out of my grasp. I think he feels the same.
4. I cheated on my husband when we were dating several times. One of the times, I went home with this one guy who I'd always had a major attraction to. We had a fun night. I gave him a killer bj and even swallowed and enjoyed it (not normally something I am into). Guess who I don't swallow for? My husband. Ha ha. And years later this guy is now his boss. My husband has no idea it ever happened. I smile when I think about it.
For the record, I didn't submit a secret, so none are mine. :-)