Thursday, March 24, 2011

Struggling

I've been struggling for a few weeks. I don't know if it's the time change - which has never bothered me before (not like the Fall time change) - or if it's mild depression, when I don't have anything to really be depressed about or what??

I'm tired all the time. I'm starting to feel those old anxiety feelings creep back in. The feeling that I couldn't leave the house, because then I'd have to interact with ACTUAL PEOPLE. ::::shiver:::: Let's just say I won't be leaving the house without my Ativan and a bottle of cold, cold water.

The weather has turned cold again. Just when I was reveling in wearing shorts and sandals, today I am freezing. I wasn't going to turn the heat on, just out of spite, but when I was still shivering after blow drying my hair, I caved.

After I drop Sissy off at preschool, I'm getting my hair cut (YAY! That always makes me feel better). And, since my hair dresser is in the same area as the Mart of Wal I like to shop at AND since gas prices are ridiculous high and probably going higher, I decided to roll them into just one trip. It's only about 10 miles one way, but doing 2 (two) 20 mile round trips in 2 days seemed like a waste of time - and gas! You know how cheap I am!

I forgot about the Wednesday Madhouse yesterday - I swear, this week has seemed like a month, with no breaks! Perhaps I will get to that topic tomorrow and not bore you to tears with my Debbie Downer feelings. What can I say? Sometimes I need to vent my spleen. Aren't you all SO lucky?

Have a good Thursday hooligans. Mine promises to be extra busy, but maybe that'll keep my brain preoccupied and I can't dwell on things that make me crazy. :-)

Love,

10 comments:

  1. My advice? Drink Heavily. Cheers ETW!!

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  2. I love new hair day. Always puts me in a better frame of mind!

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  3. I have been catching up with your blog lately chica, and I think you may want to start convincing the Evil Twin that life is better in the south where I am.

    Today is cloudy here but will be sunny soon and 86 degrees.

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  4. It turned cold here too. It's been in the high 70's for the last week and then today...BAM...and snow on Saturday. Grrr...

    You know, you probably just need a nice vacation. Time with your family and more importanly, no set schedule!

    then again, a nice big valium might do the trick in a pinch, hee hee! Hope you feel like your old self soon!

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  5. Hey at least you got you some meds to help deal with all that. Hope ya feel better!

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  6. Matt-Man - I like the way you think!

    Jennifer - it will be even better when I recolor it this weekend! :-)

    Joker - I would LOVE that. I'm from the South and expect to be back there at some point.

    Chandra - Thanks. I think some rest and sunshine would work miracles!

    MC - Thanks! I know I'll perk up soon.

    Roc - Ativan is the finest med ever invented. I've been on it since 2007.

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  7. I feel that anxiety these days too. I think it is the change of season.

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  8. Yay for hair cuts!! Cause that means pictures!! Woo hoo!! I think a Box o wine is in order too!!

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  9. Honestly..I understand what you are saying..sometimes these clouds just come.

    Haircut.. that is a good boost, for me it means fresh color( why am I getting gray??)

    And cold, well that is probably it right there..I agree, with Joker..south..

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