Thursday, August 23, 2012

Not Dead, Just Hanging On

August has not been berry, berry good to me.

Well, I guess it has been in a way, but I'd have to say more bad than good. The Evil Twin became increasingly frustrated and angry about my drinking. He talked me into a stint at rehab at the hospital.

What can I say? The food was good. The other patients were cool and I was happy to make some friends.

I didn't fare too well otherwise. I was discharged and got drunk that evening. Let's just say that went over as well as a turd in a punchbowl. The Evil Twin and I weren't getting along at all.

I ended up having to leave the house. Luckily, a friend from my recent rehab stint took me in and we took care of each other. I won't go into particulars, but after about a week, I was back home with the Evil Twin and the kids. And, now, I'm trying to catch up with all the things I missed in my absence.

The Evil Twin and I have a renewed commitment to one another and it's almost like we're starting over in love and life.

I've been scared straight. It's been 13 days tomorrow since I've had any alcohol whatsoever.

This is my new life. I'm happy here. I attend an outpatient rehab program in the mornings and attend an AA meeting every day (well, I have missed a day here and there due to scheduling conflicts). I enjoy my morning program and the AA meetings, too.

From now on, I'll leave the drinking to the amateurs. I've fought too hard to go back down the pathetic path I was on.

'Til next time,
Love,

11 comments:

  1. {{HUGS}} I missed you, but assumed you were dealing with the broken hand/toe. You can do anything you set you mind on so you got this!

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  2. Sorry that August sucked; I hope the reward will continue to be worth the struggle!

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  4. Damn, I was wondering what happened to you - glad you're on your way to being ok.:) Props to you for doing what you have to do to get your world right.

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  5. Time for a new banner on the top of your blog page. Instead of a wine glass, perhaps a cold glass of lemonade.

    I'm happy for you. You have always been so open and honest with your readers but it was probably tough to come back and fill us all in on the recent absence. Kudos to you all around. And kudos to the Evil Twin for being strong enough to force the issue.

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  6. I'm glad that you're back. I, too, assumed that it was due to the broken bone.

    Love and hugs to you and yours.

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  7. You are the most honest human being I've ever read on the net.
    I'm proud to know you, and I'm proud of you for taking the bull by the horns.
    Wow.

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  8. Good to see you back. I've been where ET was. It isn't a good place. Really glad to see you both working at it and re-committing yourselves.
    One day at a time!

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  9. That is such a shame.

    Things must have been bad. I'm sure you'll work thro' this with the support of family and friends.

    Frankly, I'd miss a glass of wine of an evening.

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  10. I am proud of you for staying strong and hope you will find the strength to continue. Your children deserve that, for certain. Luv ya.

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